Questions I wanted to ask HIM.

You have always known my heart, and You know those people whom I really love.
You know my weaknesses and my strengths since
You innately put them together to create me.
This is the first time I considered a problem, a problem for the 18 years of my existence.
Yet I would never complain for You have better plans for me and for that person You've taken away.
Just answer me as I walk the path You want me to take.
I'm looking forward to know the answers eventually.
Please make things clear so I wont see myself wavering again.
You know that I'm more afraid of losing a loved one by my side than dying.

But why of all the people You've chosen that best friend of mine lose grip on me?
Why did You allow us to fight over things?
Why did You allow her to have a clouded heart towards me?
Why did You allow her to count my mistakes, when You know I could never do that back?
Why would You allow her to hate me that much when all I have for her is love?
Why don't you allow me to hate her as well?
Why would You have to prolong this?
I know You love me, and everything that You're doing to me is our of love.
Even if I'm totally clueless right now.

Is this Your scolding?
Are we not good enough for each other to stay friends forever?

Teach me to move on please?
Always be by my side.
Don't let me make a wrong move to stir this hatred between us anymore.
I made so much, and she never understand.

Let her be safe, I'm no longer by her side anymore.
Make Your move please?
So I can catch her again.
I'm praying that You'll make me a better person once that,that thing happen.

I've already forgiven her.
I'm praying that You'll melt the ice in her heart and make her warm again.

I'm praying that You'll make way to intertwine our paths again.
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11 moths 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10... years from now.
I'm leaving it all to You since I can relax in Your presence.

Thanks for everything Lord.

Amen.